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Jun. 15th, 2009

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I love my children, a lot. I had almost given up hope when I miscarried twice, and when I had lost the baby I wanted to adopt. Itsuki, Shiro and Rachel actually make me feel like I have it all. They're amazing, vibrant children with a wonderful future ahead of them and I'm honored to be a part of their life.

... But I do not know why I don't feel fulfilled. They should - but why can't I get the possibility of what if Gisborne had stayed with the kids or what if House started to care about himself? I finally have what I want: I have an amazing career, a wonderful house and great kids. Why does another man count?

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[info]bringanarmy wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 03:56 am (UTC)
Just be glad I'm not in Ozai's account
Because a woman who has a child needs to be married?
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[info]drcuddles wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 03:59 am (UTC)
No, she doesn't have to be married to have kids.
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[info]bringanarmy wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 04:04 am (UTC)
You asked why you were feeling empty.
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[info]drcuddles wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 06:08 am (UTC)
The problem is that I shouldn't need one to make me feel better.
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[info]reliablekiller wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 03:59 am (UTC)
Perhaps you need something that is entirely your own? Children and a house must be shared, and a career is only what you do, not who you are.

Some sort of hobby or distraction that would be just you?
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[info]drcuddles wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 04:01 am (UTC)
I play tennis on Saturdays, and I go running every morning before I go to work. Sadly, being a doctor is very time consuming even more so being the Dean of Medicine.
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[info]reliablekiller wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 04:08 am (UTC)
Tennis is still something that has to be shared. Exercising could work, I suppose, but do you do it because you enjoy it, or simply because it is necessary?

While I admit my own obligations are not as...intensive..as yours, sometimes it is necessary simply to make the time. You can't be 'empty' forever, it'll eventually wear you down.
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[info]drcuddles wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 06:09 am (UTC)
But shouldn't my work be fulfilling? And I have a daughter to look after too. It shouldn't ... be this hard.
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[info]godisagirl wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 04:33 am (UTC)
It pisses-...hurts that you've forgotten me.
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[info]drcuddles wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 04:35 am (UTC)
I haven't forgotten about you, Haruhi. You went into space, remember?
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[info]godisagirl wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 04:36 am (UTC)
I haven't left! I'm still...here. Right here, talking to you.
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[info]drcuddles wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 04:41 am (UTC)
You stopped visiting me all together. For a while, I waited for you to start again, but you had gone after Lockon. Then, you just stopped talking to me altogether.
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[info]godisagirl wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 04:42 am (UTC)
You found other people to take care of. I was...wasn't part of it anymore.

Edited at 2009-06-16 04:43 am (UTC)
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[info]drcuddles wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 06:09 am (UTC)
You know that you're always welcome to come by and visit me at anytime.
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[info]dogsof_war wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 06:01 am (UTC)
Why the fuck is everyone whining today? So do something about it and stop bitching.
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[info]drcuddles wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 06:11 am (UTC)
You mean that a lot of people are feeling introspective today?
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[info]dogsof_war wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 06:33 am (UTC)
I mean everyone is fucking bitching.
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[info]drcuddles wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 06:34 am (UTC)
Great.
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[info]dogsof_war wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 06:38 am (UTC)
Peachy. If you talked less and did more about your problems, they'd be fucking gone by now.
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[info]drcuddles wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 06:53 am (UTC)
I thought that getting a child would do it, honestly. Remember that virus when we thought - anyway, that felt good.
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[info]peoplesprincess wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 06:26 am (UTC)
Everyone's posts are about people.

Is that really what's so important to all of you?
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[info]drcuddles wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 06:53 am (UTC)
For me, it is. I can't speak for everyone else.
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[info]peoplesprincess wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 07:04 am (UTC)
Do you try to make it not matter, or do you just let it happen?
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[info]drcuddles wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 07:09 am (UTC)
For me? It matters. As much as I try to consume myself with work, the fact that I come home to a daughter that hasn't been around me and an empty house happens.
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[info]peoplesprincess wrote:
Jun. 16th, 2009 07:11 am (UTC)
... Why do people do that, despite all the trouble it causes?
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